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I am trying to do everything perfectly in crisis.

Lately, I have been struggling with wanting to do too much, too perfect, and I am doing nothing of my plans.

Like you and many of us, I also have big dreams. Big for me, at least. As a programmer, I want to know all of today’s popular tools. I want to try them all out.
I want to know everything there is to learn about the tools I have to use at work.
For the past ten years, I have wanted to invent my own products and services. I wanted to write on my blog daily and create a YouTube channel. I wanted to do a lot more as well.
But I ended up doing very little of my main goals compared to how ambitious I was, and I still am.
I feel the pressure of time. I learned that I have to choose wisely what I spend my time on. Not so much what I spend my money on, compared to my time and energy.
There is so much going on in my head right now that I hardly can write something that is meaningful to you.
But I promised myself that I would do it.

I wanted to learn front-end development. I saw that there is a market for JavaScript. First, I used jQuery. Then Angular. Then VueJS. Then React, then Angular2+. Finally NodeJS.
With 12 years of full stack coding experience, It took me 3 months to read through the new Angular documentation. Of course, after working the 8-hour day.
It also took me 3 months to read the Node.js documentation. I wanted to do it, and I did it. Although it took me half a year to achieve these goals. Did I get anything for doing them? No, nothing.

I could go on.

I should be happy. I also achieved a lot of things.
I got married. We managed to buy a house. Although we have a mortgage on it. I am not keen on that fact.
We have a nice Dalmatian dog. He is full of energy.
I have a profession that is in demand. I have quite a few years of experience behind me. Hopefully, the market will be open for my applications when I have to apply for a new job.

The world is in chaos. We have been through almost 3 years of Covid-19. And it still getting worse.
The Russians are at war with Ukraine. Hungary, the country I am living in, has a border with Ukraine.
The world is in a financial crisis again. As I know it, the world would be in a natural financial crisis anyway. On top of that, there is the global pandemic crisis and now the energy crisis caused by the war. And it is all happening at the same time.

Regardless of the circumstances, I always wanted to create. Since there is no better time than now, I have created this article.
There are tons of books that say, early on, you can make many mistakes because nearly no one will see it. As my skills and habits get improve, the audience will grow. Not that I will make fewer mistakes. But hopefully will make smaller mistakes.

That is for today. I hope you enjoyed reading my mind dump for the day. I usually write for myself, really long notes. Now I do it publicly. I hope I will find a few active readers who I can have conversations with. Having similar interests 🙂

By Botond Bertalan

I am the founder of www.botond.dev
I started my programming studies in 2010 and started to work professionally in 2012 before graduation.
I love programming and architecting code that solves real business problems and gives value for the end-user.

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